Our bodies are designed to run without any help. Your heart doesn’t think twice about producing the healthy blood that runs through your veins, and your brain is on a constant loop making sure all bodily functions are not only functioning properly but running smoothly. It starts to get complicated when you add feelings and emotions into the equation, and a once simple process becomes something brand new. Emotions are what drive us in becoming fully admitted in things like pain, love, rage, or sadness. Other than the visible physical attributes these complicated emotions are what connects us with the 7 billion people on this planet.
So what happens when our emotions seem to be too monumental for us to handle? Things like the function of your lungs expanding and filling up with fresh oxygen becomes unthinkable when you’re in the middle of a blinding panic attack, the idea that your brain controls your body doesn’t click anymore, and all that runs through your head are all the emotions your feeling all at once. The mind is no longer the captain of your ship and emotions reign supreme. So how do we cope? To be honest, I’m not sure. Life is always going to be full of emotionally taxing situations and struggles. Emotions are as confusing to me as it must be confusing for a baby bird when the task of learning to flying arises. All the worries of hoping that when they finally dare to jump instead of falling, they’ll fly. I’m sure when it comes to having the courage to jump they begin to wish they could spend a few more days in the nest because watching all of the other birds flying seemed a lot simpler from the comfort of a nest.
Doesn’t everything seem so simple until it isn’t anymore? I can only explain it like this: Close your eyes and imagine your sitting in an airplane. You’re drifting through the breezy air, and you look out the window too see the distant world below you. Massive slabs of land and miles upon miles of bright blue ocean water all seem so small from so far up. It all makes you feel infinite until your face-to-face with the miles upon miles of ocean, and you realize just how unbelievably vast it is up close. You got so comfortable seeing the ocean high in the air, and now that it’s staring you in the face the fear begins to set in. Everything seemed so simple from far away. It is not until we reach it that the magnitude of the whole situations really hits us, then suddenly you forget how to breathe, and something straightforward seems impossible now. Learning to exhale feels impossible when the world around you is falling apart, and all seems lost.
When I started this series I had intended to focus on the positive being that there is so much negative in the world around us, but I keep coming back to the reason I started this blog. Not everything in life is going to be positive, a big ball of sunshine, or fields of daisies. It’s going to be difficult and I refuse to shy away from the difficult for the sake of keeping things on the surface clean and pretty. Right now, life is an epic tug-of-war game that I, unfortunately, have to play despite my hesitation to do so. Don’t forget that your not alone in this game and that you have a team behind you who are there to cheer you on. If you don’t have a team player or village to confide in then I challenge you to find someone. Like I’ve said in a previous blog post, “We were never meant to do life alone.” Remember that your emotions and opinions are valid, but this validation doesn’t give you permission to sit in a corner and cower. So take a deep breath, spread your wings, and learn to fly.